Learning to Love Yourself

Monday, January 19, 2015


I've had the most amazing day with school! It definatly gave my self-esteem a boost! I was so worried all week about this 3 page Criminal Justice report I had to write, APA style, with citations, references, etc. Now I've been out of school 20 years, and didn't pay attention my entire high school years because I was "too busy" to. I only graduated because I tried to take my life my senior year and spent 90 days in a dual diagnosed treatment center. The teachers and staff felt bad for me. Anyway, I was no scholar. So when this paper came up, (and it looks like there will be 1 a week for the rest of the semester) I freaked. But........I got a 98%! And in my comment section, the instructor wrote "impressive writing". So, in both my classes so far, I have an A! I know it's the beginning (semester ends March 1st) but I've had 10 graded assignments.  And my average is a 98.6% in my Success course,  and a 96.9% in Criminal Justice! I knew I could do it, just needed as little reinforcement. I expected a lower grade my first couple weeks, because I'm not used to college or the way the instructors want assignments and reports completed.  But it looks like I'm right there with them! So that was my self-esteem boost for the day...What was yours?

Wednesday, January 7, 2015


Hello everyone! 

This is my follow up blog "Learning to Love Yourself - 2/Self-Esteem"

Monday, January 5th, I started online college for the first time. It was scary at first. Before classes began, I had so much anxiety. You see, I enrolled in college 2 other times. The first time I enrolled I was 21. It was community college, and me and my 16 year older sister decided to go for it. Well, at the first quiz I quit. I didn't even take the quiz. I walked up to the instructor and asked why everything that was asked on the quiz we did NOT learn in class. She informed me that the quiz was on the material we should have read over the past week. So I left. The second time I enrolled in college,  I was 30 years old. Here, I was in active addiction and, well, you can put 2 and 2 together.

But this time is right. I just know it! 

I'm taking 2 courses.  The first is perfect for me. "Pathways to Academic & Professional Success". This course is amazing! I've already learned so much about myself, and how to change what is not working for me. For instance, while I good at self-motivation,  I am poor at time-management.  So for that I have to write down what needs to be done. Prioritize! And set time limits.

My second course is "Intro to Criminal Justice". I'm diving right into my major. Love it! It's a lot of hard work but extremely interesting. 

Well, enrolling, and starting school lifted my self-esteem.  I feel more confident already. So, for part 2 of "Learning to Love Yourself/Self-Esteem", I believe I'm on the right track.